Two years ago my husband & I, our 3 kids (ages 4, 2, & 1), & 2 dogs moved from Illinois to South Carolina. Most people assume we moved 1000 miles away… to a town we’ve never been… into a home we’ve never seen…because of work. Moving for work would have been about the only logical way to explain why we would willingly disrupt our lives like that. We each had well-paying jobs; we had an adorable home in the suburbs, great neighbors…the whole kit and caboodle really…. and YET I suddenly wanted take our kids & our dogs & spend every dollar we’d ever saved…to move.
For a while, I tried to choke down those feelings. In full transparency, those feelings made me angry… “…why cant I let this go!?”. The internal turmoil (mentally aaaand physically – the Pepcid & MyLanta combo saved my gut), that restlessness…it was infuriating, it was exhausting, it was too much!
I prayed & prayed & prayed; I lost so much sleep staring up at the ceiling absolutely dwarfed in fear; I cried many tears & then I finally told my husband (Pat) “I think we need to move.”. To my absolute shock (I’m literally still shocked as I write this 2 years later), my VERY risk averse husband agreed.
I hadn’t known how to explain that sudden restlessness until recently. A couple Sundays ago, our pastor used the term “divine discontentment” and no phrase has ever resonated with me more. I prayed the same prayer every single night for months; something like “I don’t know why this is on my heart, Lord, but please make it obvious to me if this is your will for our family.” And then … God moved. In little ways & in obvious ways too:
I saw my boss’s boss at the gym & literally in the middle of an ab circuit she said, “Hey! Have you ever seen Greenville, SC? I think you would really like it there.” Her comment was too timely so I spilled what was on my heart right then & there. (we don’t live in Greenville but close!) There were suddenly ACTUAL billboards on our way to & from work…in Peoria, Illinois….that said “Discover SC” Pat’s job was approved as a full-time “remote” position I walked into a meeting with my boss prepared to resign & I walked out with a plan to continue working remotely We were going to be uncomfortably close (&, more likely, short) on money…as it turns out moving is VERY expensive…but just in the nick of time Pat was offered overtime hours. Pat worked his full-time job & then worked from 4 pm to 8 pm for weeks to help pay for all the expenses. We bought a house sight unseen only hours after it had been on the market & it happens to be in the BEST neighborhood made up of the kindest people I have ever met. Our home in Illinois sold to the sweetest (out of state) family that couldn’t wait to make our home THEIR home.One of the first nights in our new home in SC, I was making dinner & I felt OVERWHELMED with gratitude. It was SO CLEAR that the ONLY reason I was standing in that kitchen…in SOUTH CAROLINA… was God’s provision and favor.
Pat & I work really hard but THIS is not something we could have pulled off on our own. I didn’t know what to say except “this family needs to worship” &, HAND TO THE BIBLE, a MOMENT later, one of our neighbors knocked on the door to invite me to a women’s bible study.
Two years later, that neighbor is someone I consider more like family & she & several other neighbors come over every other Sunday evening for bible study….which…Pat & I?…attending…let alone HOSTING (not facilitating) bible study deserves a post of its own one day, y’all. 
As I read this back, it sounds like I’m making this up but its all very, very true.
𝐆𝐨𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐚 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐍𝐎 𝐖𝐀𝐘. 𝐆𝐎𝐃 𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃. 
*sigh* That was long winded & perhaps I could have just boiled it down to this…the next time you are wrestling with something…a move, a career change, a financial decision, starting a blog (
) whatever IT is…
) whatever IT is…
Pray on it; pray with FERVOR; have a faith so UNWAVERING that God himself marvels. You will know when you are walking in alignment with God. When you step out on faith & faith alone, it RARELY looks logical. Lean allll the way in anyway. If you take nothing else away from this rant, take this… YES, there is always the possibility that it doesn’t work out but… what if it does? Do not limit God. He is capable of immeasurably more, sis.Love,
Kai
P.s. I almost did not share this for various reasons… of the more trivial reasons… I’m sure there is a whoooole handful (maybe more) of people that will read this & think, “woopty-doo. You moved & it worked out. Good for you…no one cares” but honestly, it is okay if that crosses your mind. Still got love for ya 
& for the more sobering reason, sometimes it feels insensitive or aloof to share something like this when there is such horrifying & unfathomable suffering happening RIGHT NOW.
But then I thought “you know who WOULDN’T want me to share this…the enemy… the enemy would hate this testimony.”
& so, despite everything, I’m sharing anyway. I’m sharing & I’m still praying.
Love y’all.
Tracy Pogue
Kaila-
Love all of this! You are so talented in so many ways. God has given you many gifts and I’m happy you are in SC and creating your path in life.
You’ve got a great memory to recall in the middle of an workout we discussed you moving :).
Many hugs and kisses. Miss you lots!
Tracy
bykailamarie
Tracy PogueRemember it plain as day! Will always be thankful for you, TP!! Miss you so much!!
Tracy Pogue
Also I have my daughter,alex, and my sons girlfiend, Lauren, following you now. You rock!
bykailamarie
Tracy PogueThank you so much, ladies!